Being a detail person,
I wish I could share this story more in-depth with you. But the need to respect
the confidentiality of our UGM guests necessitates me keeping this pretty
general.
It started a week ago Thursday.
No, actually it started earlier than that. I don’t remember
when the first time was that I came out from behind the table…but I definitely
felt the difference when I did.
What do I mean, “out from behind the table”?
Well, when I first showed up to work at UGM nine weeks ago, the
crew chief encouraged me to start off serving food to the guests, until I got
to feeling comfortable in the environment. When serving food, a table separated
me from the line of hungry people. Interactions were brief, focused mainly on what
food item they wanted. Even when I helped the resource guru, the table we sat
behind still created a type of barrier.
My typical view when serving...though this was on a very lightly attended morning! |
Eventually, I felt ready to move out and try “working the
floor” – clearing trash, wiping down tables, scooting in chairs, sweeping
crumbs, etc. Being out from behind the table seems to even the playing field in
a way. It opens one up to the possibility of longer conversations. Honestly, I’m
not great at capitalizing on that opportunity, but I have had people stand and
talk with me for a couple minutes at a time—one lady asked me to pray for her
situation. But that’s her story…
The vast majority of our guests are conscientious about
throwing away their own trash and letting us know if they accidentally spilled
something. So oftentimes those of us working the floor are not constantly busy.
Well, a week ago Thursday I was working floor again – and I
noticed some trash (cup/napkin/etc.) at an empty spot. So I cleared it away. A
few minutes later, I noticed a man sitting there. And he was glaring at me,
hardcore. The only thing I could conclude was that he wasn’t happy with me for
throwing his empty things away while he was back in line for more food.
The glaring continued, so that I finally moved from my
normal standing spot to the other side of the room to avoid his gaze. Eventually,
he left the building. When I was going around with the broom and dustpan later,
I realized that there was a bag of plastic bottles/aluminum cans at the chair
where he had been sitting. Thinking he might possibly come back for them, I set
them near the front door.
And I was right—he came back. I happened to be near the door
when I saw him coming in, so I plucked up some courage and went up to him with
the bag. “I think you left these,” I said…and he thanked me. A simple enough
interaction, but I feel that I was able to show him a taste of Christ’s love
even in that brief interchange…especially in light of the angry way he had been
staring at me earlier.
Fast forward to Tuesday morning. I was sitting at the
resource table near the front door and saw this same man come in. And when he
saw me, he actually waved at me. Later I saw him talking to one of our crew
members—and then the next thing I knew, this guest was sitting down in the
chair across from mine, asking what type of resources I had to offer.
At the resource table! |
To say that I initially felt intimidated because of the ‘evil
eye’ he had given me the time before might be an understatement. But neither of
us referred to that previous interaction—and while it was definitely prominent
in my mind, part of me wonders if he remembered it at all. If he hadn’t waved
at me when he came in, I would be more inclined to say that he didn’t. But the
wave seemed to indicate recognition….so who knows.
Anyway, what followed was an interesting conversation full
of several tangents. Like I said, I would love to tell you all the details…but
that would be broaching his right to confidentiality. Suffice it to say, he
seems to be a widely-read, well-educated person. Although I don’t know the
veracity of some of the things he was telling me about, he made me think of
someone who would love to be a history lecturer.
Basically, he told me that he wants to get into a recovery
program for the sake of his family. That’s the generic version of what he said.
He must have sat and talked with me for…I don’t know, 15-30
minutes. Which was mostly him talking and me listening. It had been a slow
morning at the resource table, so it’s not like there were others waiting. The
crew guys were familiar with this guest, and at least three of them stopped at
the table to check in and make sure I was comfortable with how the conversation
was going—they’re so fantastic!
Well, it came time for the dayroom to close for the morning…and
as we concluded filling out the informational form so my supervisor could
follow up with him, I told the guest that I would be praying for him. And I
told him, “I believe Jesus loves you.” According to what he was telling me, he
knew he was making some poor life choices—and he wanted to change. But from one
of his earlier comments, I could tell he wasn’t a believer.
Other than a bit at kids’ VBS/CEF events, I think that’s the
closest I’ve ever come to sharing the gospel with anyone, especially an adult.
Evangelism is definitely not one of my strong points….
He commented that I must be a liberal Christian because I
wasn’t a Bible-thumping, “Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God” type of
Christian. He would have started off on another whole tangent about theology…something
about how there was the Word before there was God. Which tried to push my “belief”
button, but it really was closing time and I was not in the mood to get in an
argument with someone I knew I didn’t agree with. So we parted ways.
But he keeps on coming back to my mind…and I have been
praying for him. And I would ask that you pray for him too. I saw him in the
dayroom again yesterday morning. But he didn’t come sit at the resource table
with me again, so I didn’t have any personal interaction with him.
God knows this guest’s heart. God knows where he is at on
the journey that He has planned for him. I may never know the rest of his
story. But I hope that even just by sitting with him and being a “good listener,”
as he called me, maybe—just maybe—my comment about Jesus’ love for him won’t
have fallen on deaf ears.
Thanks for your prayers for him, and also for me as I
continue interacting with our wide variety of guests for the next five weeks
until my UGM internship finishes. The interactions I have had there, coupled
with the topics we’ve been covering in our Servant Teams trainings, have
definitely given me more of a heart for the marginalized and downtrodden here
in my own country.
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